So it's been awhile

I didn't want to jinx my performance. I didn't want to fill my head with the doubts I knew that I would fill. So I performed. I didn't do great, because I know I can do better. But when I'm nervous I tend to forget to breathe and the like. Also had to contend with a sprained shoulder that limits my movements.

I got a 78 in my first class with the Opera, I was just glad I didn't collapse. I got a 75 in my second class, which part of me doesn't think was totally fair because I think I did better than that, but whatever. All in all it was a good experience for me. There were really good singers, and I held my own. I didn't back down, I didn't cringe, I just did the best I could with what I was given. I look forward to doing things like this again, to broaden my scope, to gain more experience.

I find I'm treating my performances like I did my orientations with work. The more I did them, the more comfortable I was doing them. So I have to keep doing this, putting myself out there. Not giving up. That's what I'm taking from this.

less than 2 weeks

And I will be at the Kiwanis festival hopefully not making a total fool of myself. Now enters myself saying that is not a good way to go at it, but I do think this way consistently.

My lesson on Wednesday consisted of me trying to sing without the help of my book...I'm not confident yet on my second Italian piece, but my first one and my opera song is going fairly well.

Not much is going on, I need to phone the accompianist, but other than that blah week.

Some days

Some days are bad where I just want to throw in the towel and say to hell with it.

Then there are the days when things go well and you think, "yeah, I can do this!"

That was yesterday at my lesson, true there are still things to work on, to polish up here and there, but it's easier when I know how to fix it, or to remind myself what not to do when things do go horribly wrong.

Just must remember to relax.

3 more week til the festival!