So it's been awhile

I didn't want to jinx my performance. I didn't want to fill my head with the doubts I knew that I would fill. So I performed. I didn't do great, because I know I can do better. But when I'm nervous I tend to forget to breathe and the like. Also had to contend with a sprained shoulder that limits my movements.

I got a 78 in my first class with the Opera, I was just glad I didn't collapse. I got a 75 in my second class, which part of me doesn't think was totally fair because I think I did better than that, but whatever. All in all it was a good experience for me. There were really good singers, and I held my own. I didn't back down, I didn't cringe, I just did the best I could with what I was given. I look forward to doing things like this again, to broaden my scope, to gain more experience.

I find I'm treating my performances like I did my orientations with work. The more I did them, the more comfortable I was doing them. So I have to keep doing this, putting myself out there. Not giving up. That's what I'm taking from this.