Vacation?

So I sit and ponder the grande scheme of things. I finally watched my little video of my performance, and while I cringe at it, it's still an experience. I can either run away from it or because why else would I be doing this if I ran away, I can learn from it and keep going. This is how I am. I am overly critical of myself, I know this. I want things to be perfect, but life is an imperfect creation, more importantly life is what we create of it. I'm hoping that all my problems with regards to performing can be erased like when I used to train people and had to keep their attention for 8 hours. I used to be nervous and scared then too, but I did it so often that I forgot to be scared. So that is what I will do, take each performance no matter how good or bad and keep doing it until I no longer shake the second I stand on stage. That is my only solution.