Emotions and singing

There are a great many things I do that I do not understand. Artistic endeavors is not one of those things. I enjoy participating in the arts because it gives me a chance to express something that I don't express well with words. My emotions have always been a source of frustration for not only me, but those around me. I cannot put into words what I feel most times because at any time I view two sides to my emotional outbursts: I may know I feel sad, but I don't always understand why I feel sad because I know there is no reason to be sad. Add on, the emotional atmosphere in a given area can also have a large effect on my emotional reaction (yay Empathy!), and we've a got ourselves a recipe for probably the most sensitive person.

Most of my artistic endeavors have fallen by the wayside. It's not that I have stopped feeling most of the emotions that pass through me, but rather I believe it's because I sing.

Out of the over half dozen instruments that I have played throughout my life, singing has been my favourite. Not just for the ease with which my instrument can travel (which is awesome, it's with me ALL THE TIME!), but rather that I am actually part of the music. I may not be the young maiden who is waiting for her love to return home from working along the Rhine, the longing and anticipation of a joyous reunion, but I can put myself in her shoes. Singing allows my empathy to be exercised and controlled. Singing allows me to feel without having to give an explanation, it's a medium where it's expected. Singing allows me to tap into the wealth of emotions that I carry with me in my very essence.

I may not be able to act, but I can definitely empathise. Which may in turn help me act somewhere down the line. Maybe if one day in the near future I get lucky and I can actually perform an Opera. Hey, it could happen, then I can allow the world to understand the emotion I feel.